Tuesday, May 18, 2010

My sweet angle baby....Addisyn Clair Dubea



FYI: This post may contain TMI for some people.



The story of Addisyn Clair is one that I will never get tired of telling. I look forward to when I will be able to tell my grand kids the story of how their mom came into my life. :)



From the beginning our little puddin' was full of surprises. Addisyn Clair Dubea was born on October 10, 2009, but her story really starts on February 11, 2009. The whole day I just wasn't feeling well. I knew I was supposed to start my m/c anytime (I was on the "pill"). That night Tyler and I had dinner with some friends then we all went back to our apartment to hang out. By this time I had begun to have the worst cramps I have ever had. I remember thinking "oh great, this is going to be a fun night!" I ended up going to be early expecting to start in the middle of the night. The next day I still hadn't started, but I didn't think too much of it. When Tyler picked me up from work that night we joked and decided to pick up a pregnancy test from the drug store. We decided to wait until the next morning to take the test thinking I might start that night. Well, if you know me at all you know that I don't like to wait so while Tyler played X-box 360 in the living room I took the test in the bathroom. 3 minutes later I was staring a 2 very bring pink lines. I will never forget how excited, scared, happy, and nervous I was at that moment. When I was able to speak again I called Tyler into the bathroom and we stood there looking at the test together. I remember saying "how did this happen?" Looking back I can picture God looking at us laughing and saying "see what happens when you try to control your own life." We hadn't planned on having kids for at least a few more years, but God had his own plan for us.



In the beginning everything went very smoothly. I never really had morning sickness, but I was tired all the time. It all seemed kind of surreal and I almost didn't believe that we were going to have a baby. Then in June we went for our ultra-sound and saw our little girl. We could see her little hands and feet and at one point we could see her tiny nose. That is when it all became real. We were going to have a baby!



Things continued to go smoothly until the last month and a half. My blood pressure went sky high and I was gaining a LOT of weight really fast. I was put on bed rest and was unable to work. At 38 weeks my bp was so high my obgyn decied to induce labor. I was so ready to meet our little girl and scared to death of being responsible for a tiny little person.



We went to the hospital on Thursday October 8, 2009 and began the inducing. My labor was progressing slowly, but progressing so we continued until early Saturday morning (October 10). When I was finally able to start pushing, we found out that the babies head was stuck in the birth canal. At this point I had been pushing for about 2 hours and my bp went way up again so we opted for a c-section. Then at 1:47 am on October 10, 2009 Addisyn Clair entered the world and changed my world forever! I cannot express in words how much I love this little angle that God has given me. I am so glad that God didn't like our plans and put his into motion.



Even though we were not expecting Addisyn and we went through so tough times with her, I wouldn't change a thing about it! She is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I feel so privileged that God has trusted me to raise one of his children!




The past 7 months have gone by so quickly. Everyone said it would go by fast, but I didn't relize how fast! Some days I feel like we just came home from the hospital and others it feels like this has been our life forever. I cannot image how our life would be with out Addisyn.






I love you Clair Bear!!! xoxo

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