Who am I?

I am a mother, a wife, a daughter, a sister, etc... But who am I? This is something I have been thinking about a lot recently. Does being Addisyn's momma define who I am? What about being Tyler's wife, or Mike and Linda's daughter? Katherine and Ashley's sister? Am I my own person any more, or am I just what everyone else needs me to be? Don't get me wrong, I LOVE being Addisyn's momma, and Tyler's wife, and Mike and Linda's Daughter, and Katherine and Ashley's big sister. But...I have lost myself in trying to meet everyones needs and wants. I almost feel selfish just thinking about what I need and want sometimes, but I know that if I don't take time for myself, I will not be able to give everyone else what they need. It is exhausting being a wife and mother and the work is never done. There is always laundry to do and bottles to wash. Always diapers to change and baths to give. I love doing all the motherly thing and wifely things, but there are times where I wish I could just be by myself and do something that I enjoy. Even for an hour...that would be nice. I know that all I have to do is tell Tyler I need some time alone and he would watch Addisyn, but I would spend the whole time worrying and wondering what they were doing. If you know me at all you know that I am just a little bit of a control freak. OK, maybe I am a HUGE control freak. No one can do anything the way I like it except me. Only I can fold our laundry the right way, only I can wash the dishes the right way, only I can feed Addisyn the right way. I think you get the point. I have gotten better....slightly. I let anyone feed Addisyn that wants to even if they make a mess. (It's not completely their fault. Addisyn is a messy eater.) I will let anyone change a dirty diaper if they dare. But somethings only I can do. With all this controlling and doing everything my way I have lost my identity and most days feel like am in a bad version of "Ground Hogs Day". So...the moral of this story is I need to let others help me and I need to take care of myself so I can take care of my family. I have a feeling that is easier said then done.